I wonder…

I wonder if my parents ever think of me.

I wonder if they love each other.
I wonder if they ever loved each other.
I wonder if my dad has patchy facial hair.
I wonder if my mom’s eyelashes are dark and beautiful.
I wonder if they are my parents.
I wonder if they walk to work.
I wonder if they have enough to eat.
I wonder if they have their own maid.
I wonder if their house has a marble floor.
I wonder if they lived through the 2004 Tsunami.

I wonder what their names are.

I wonder if they remember me.
I wonder if they are healthy.
I wonder if I am healthy.

I wonder what it felt like to say goodbye.

I wonder if they had a choice.
I wonder if they named me.
I wonder if they are alive.
I wonder if they died happy.
I wonder if I have siblings.
I wonder if they know I exist.
I wonder if they love me.
I wonder if I love them.
I wonder if I’ll ever know them.
I wonder if I have someone’s eyes.
I wonder if I have someone’s laugh.

I wonder what its like to hug them.
I wonder what their voices sound like.

I wonder if I could understand them.

I wonder why they couldn’t keep me.

I wonder if I’ll ever know.