I’d Like To Meet My Father

Sometimes I wonder what it’d be like to still have my dad around. I wonder how different life would be if he were around. As may already be obvious I love to fantasize. At the time he died I was transitioning into young adulthood as a 16-year-old. I witnessed other friends’ relationships with their parents […]

“33 Variations” – One Trigger

Katherine began to choke. Hearing her choke, that sound, sent a wave of shock through my body. It was like I totally blacked out for a split second and was immediately transported back into my kitchen as my 13 year-old self. Sitting at the kitchen table reading Sports Illustrated searching for the “Faces in The […]

Shelf Life

My father passed away almost 7 years ago. Before he passed away he decided to donate his body to “science” which I have come to learn means allowing college students to pick and prod his body after it had been formaldihded and given a generic nondescript name. After his body had been “studied” it was then […]

Life Saving Fantasies

When I was about 10 years old my father was diagnosed with a degenerative neurological disease commonly known as Lou Gehrig’s Disease, but introduced to me as ALS. Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. It took me until the eighth grade when I did a health project on terminal illnesses, about 3 years later, to be able to […]

My Fear of Phone Calls

I always have my phone on me. I make sure I can either hear it ring or feel it vibrate. Before I go to bed I change my phone from vibrate to ringer and place it under my pillow so that there is no way I’ll miss it if someone needs to get a hold […]